You know that feeling in your tummy when you should be working because there's so much to get done ... but then you just dont want to do it no more.
My folks are in town. I am seeing them after three long years. I was homesick for a while before they came to visit. I am "really really really" happy that they are here! So why do I feel like I need space? I thought about this some when I was lying on my futon in the living room watching some crappy show on tv and my mom came and sat next to me and then lay down. It was fine thus far, till my dad decided he wanted to sit below my feet and read a book he borrowed from the berkeley public library of which he has become a devoted member. Thats when it hit me ... the reason why I survived years of staying with them was partly because I had my own room in a much larger house (as against my modest one bedroom apt) and I could close the door on them without going on a guilt trip.
They are the best roomies I have had though. I know that if I told them something was annoying me, they would listen (like this morning when I did not want to wake up till 8:30, I raised my head from under the sheets and said sssshhhhhh; and they, as only my parents would do with all their love for me, went into the bedroom and stayed so quiet I slept till 9 am). I just refuse to use that leverage a lot because I want them to have the best time with me ... selfish much? ... I'd say yes. :)
I am already dreading valentine's day next year ... cos thats when they leave! In the meantime, I'm using my office as "space" ...
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They sound like lovely people... (comma) HOWEVER, months with parents staying over in tight quarters would drive anyone to guilt, suppression of self, etc.
YUCK! In that way, I'm glad I'm an American. Parents come to visit for a week, tops!
HmM We are in the same boat again!!
I just came across ur blog today and am wondering how similar can 2 so9uthasian bi/G closeted lives can be!:) my folks r in town too.
Loving Indian parents except mine r very demanding as always !:)
I gotup at 7:30 am otherday and mom and dad gave me a "What happened to your upbringing and all the descipline" I spent Friday night browsing and watching QAF on youtube and mom thinks I have made such a mess of my life that I have even forgotten basic routine of life!
I wear my linen pajamas from MEXX at home and Dad thinks they dont even look like clothes dignified ppl shd be wearing.Also in this list of clothes are my Bana Republic faded jeans, My red christmas scarf, my ribbed brown jeans :)
hmm anyway :) its part of the LOVE package so no regrets but yes Office is now my space! too:)
Yikes! That does sound demanding. Hella' demanding, without taking into consideration the style of clothes locally.
And what were you expected to be doing Friday night except for relaxing?
I grew up in a boarding school so I can totally understand the space requirement.
I couldnt wali to get home and once I got there,I needed space.
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